?Who I Am? February 14, 2001 There are many different things that come together when I try to figure out who I am and what will become of me. Although my morals, values, and family relationships have a huge impact on my life, hardships and tragedies are what made me a strong and confident person.
The negative experiences that I?ve had in the last few years have really made me into what has become of me today. I struggled through all four years of high school. I always hated school. The only reason I went was to find somebody to skip with. There was always an excuse not to go or I always had something better to do. I barely graduated, but not on time. I was such a disappointment to my parents.
When I was seventeen, I lost a very close friend of mine in a drunk driving accident.
I never had to experience anyone dying that was close to me. It was so difficult to comprehend. To this day, I still don?t understand. It is so hard to wake up everyday realizing someone so close to you will not be there. I would go to school forgetting he was gone, but everyday I had drive by the cemetery he was buried in. It was like having a reality check everyday.
My bestfriend dying was only the start of the oncoming problems I had to face in my life. I immediately changed high schools, alienated myself from all of my friends, and found the first guy that crossed my path to occupy my time. That turned out to be a big mistake. My boyfriend was very controlling and abusive. I eventually learned it would be impossible to leave him. During that time, I fell into a drug addiction...