LilÃÂ Wayne- I Feel Like Dying -The song I Feel Like Dying by LilÃÂ Wayne uses many metaphors to portray surrealism. The fact that LilÃÂ Wayne, also known as Weezy, is usually tripping on cough syrup or some other drug when he is writing or recording his music. His trips and addictions are very apparent in this song. Wayne refers to many drugs and substances in this song such as marijuana, alcohol, codine, xanax and other hallucinogenic drugs.
Wayne refers to his psychological dependence of drugs when he says, ÃÂWish I can give you this feeling that I feel like buying, And if my dealer donÃÂt have no more, then I feel like dying.ÃÂ He is saying that the feeling he gets from drugs is so great that he is willing to pay money for it. He also infers that he needs the drug in order to maintain a feeling of emotional well being or else he ÃÂfeels like dyingÃÂ.
He also refers to the feeling he gets when smoking marijuana when he says, ÃÂI got smoke coming from my seat, I can play basketball with the moon, I got the whole world at my feetÃÂ. By this, Wayne describes how he is invincible like a superhero when he is high. He portrays this message clearly because the moon is so large and untouchable to an everyday person. Weezy also suggests that he feels in total control when mentioning the world at his feet.
This next stanza is one which can be interpreted in two ways, although IÃÂm sure he meant for it to relate to drugs and his high. Wayne says, ÃÂIÃÂm at the top of the top but I still climbÃÂ. This can refer to his career with respect to the idea that he is a very successful rapper and is making a lot of money yet he still keeps trying to do more or do better. He most likely meant for this line to mean that he is as high as he has ever been yet still wants to be higher and keeps taking more drugs. Both interpretations have to do with the idea that me always wants more: whether itÃÂs money or drugs.
As the song goes on Weezy hints at the fact that he begins to feel out of control when he says, ÃÂI am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars, I have just boarded a plane without a pilotÃÂ. This could also mean that he feels a lack of direction. When you have no pilot in an airplane, the plane is going to crash. This relates to him taking xanax because once the drug wears off he is not going to feel too good.
In the beginning of the song he starts off by talking about smoking weed which is known as a gateway drug. The drugs that he mentions throughout the song get progressively worse. For example he goes through whiskey, codine and xanax. This shows that he is getting deeper and deeper into addiction.
Finally, in the beginning the song opens with the chorus without any background music and was presented first to provide emphasis on the meaning of the song. The chorus sums up the entire song ÃÂonly once the drugs are done, that I feel like dying, I feel like dyingÃÂ . Again, this shows that his psychological addiction as well as his physical addiction are both very serious.