The process of self-identity exploration is a life-long journey. For some it comes naturally. For Janie, it might take years to find, or it might never be found at all. "There are years that ask questions and years that answer (p.25)." As a child, Janie discovers her blueprint, the map of her life, through the nature - pear trees and bees "She saw a dust-bearing bee sink into the sanctum of the bloom ...... So this was a marriage. (p.13)". Janie observes the bees pollinate a blossom inspire her knowledge of sexual awakening. She encounters ideological conflict when she implies the blueprint into her situations which, and the effects of these conflicts can alter her personality into two identities - internally and externally.
Janie Crawford experiences conflicts with her controlled grandmother in such a young age. In the case of Janie and Nanny, the conflict between the two women is generating by nature and life-long experiences respectively.
The ideal love Janie defines in nature seems against Nanny's best interest for her. Nanny has seen a lot of obstacles in her life, slavery and being raped by her master which Janie's mother is brought into the world. Although Janie listens to Nanny's troubles thoughtfully, but Nanny's points of view does not have much to do with Janie's ideal love. When Nanny believes Janie reaches womanhood and insists that she marry Logan, she refuses "The thought was too new and heavy for Janie. She fought it away. (p. 15)". Even so, Janie married Logan to fulfill her grandmother's dreams. In reality Janie does not really love Logan, she pretends to love him, but never happen. Logan never loves her either "He had ceased to wonder at her long black hair and finger it. (p.31)". She struggles and finally ran away with Joe.