Life is a musical performance; it presents us with crescendos and decrescendos. It can sometimes be allegro, yet life can also become pesante; just like a musical performance?life will never be perfect but will be beautiful in its glory. One has to stay with the beat or else will be left behind, and once the music is over that one unique performance will be impossible to replace! An opportunity presented to me is music. Music can evoke love, hate, sadness, or happiness among other feelings. No matter which of these feelings it might be the sure thing is, that music is liberating; music is without a doubt cathartic.
One of the opportunities music has provided for me is the chance of being part of a family, that family being choir. With it come many responsibilities such as making sure that the section (Alto section) is harmonizing not only within itself but also with the rest of the choir.
Choir is a family but a team as well, and we must help and stand by each one of our teammates, so to speak. Everyday is a learning experience unlike any other, and without choir and music this learning experience would be lackluster.
Music has made me grow as a person and has gifted me with all the confidence I lacked. I would have never imagined myself being able to speak in front of a class full of people; me being the shy person that I was, yet being part of choir and being involved in music made me believe that I was capable of anything I set my mind to. Knowing that I belonged and that I was actually good at performing was the greatest high I?ve ever known. These experiences helped me come out of my shell and made me realize that Music is my life and it is what I want to do for as long as I?m on this earth. I can still remember my first performance as a soloist; it was the Christmas concert of December 2001. Susana Garcia was just about to be done with her performance and at that moment I said to myself, ?Yessenia what did you get yourself into? Too bad? it?s to late to back out on this.? So I stepped unto that stage, looked at my choral director and sang my heart out. Performing was euphoric; I was so petrified, but I survived and that is the greatest feeling in the world. The adrenaline rush was spectacular and I?d rather get a rush from performing than from riding a roller coaster, which I abhor.
Well I haven?t been performing for long, but just long enough to know that music is what I came here for. I really cannot see myself doing anything else. Well, at least not with a straight and happy face! Music is just my everything, my passion, and my zest for life! It has been and still is my outlet and therapy. I know I would be completely lost without it. It has been there for me in my ups, but primarily in my lows. Music has helped me cope with the hell that I must call life. It makes me feel accepted and not so alone in my pit of pain and sadness. Music has healed many of my wounds, and has prevented me from afflicting mortal ones to myself. It is plain to see that music is my motivation and my reason for living. I do not care for money, fame, or any such thing. I care only for happiness, and doing what I love is the greatest happiness and fulfillment I can imagine possible. One does not have to earn millions to find happiness; one just has to find fulfillment in the humblest of practices, and happiness as well as productivity will fall into place.
Music is in me and will forever be with me. As the infamous rapper Eminem says, ? Look if you had one shot, the opportunity to seize everything you ever wanted?one moment; would you capture it or just let it slip?? I?d like to believe that I would capture that moment; I would seize that ?one shot? life gave me. I want to make a living out of something that I love (music), but most importantly I want to make a living out of music because music is my life!