Losing Me ( 9/25/2000 )
tears come down like raindrops on a stormy night
visions creep in and out of my head, disturbing the light
fears cascade from mountain tops, rivers overflow
I turned away from my sadness, yet I no longer glow
Identity lost, my heart holding on to simple hope
two worlds clash together, I cannot breath, barley cope
take away this mystery, take away this strange pain
trying so hard, even feeling some faith, yet I am still stuck out in the rain
feeling a bit crazy, or even a bit happy does not seem right
I remind myself about all the days, the nights, when I gave up that fight
Yet I am still here, faking a smile, when all I got for him is hurt
once again I force myself to believe, and once more I'm left in the dirt...
I watch people
Exchanging hello's and goodbyes,
But I'm left alone.
Outside the circle,
Watching as my souls slowly dies.
I feel like I'm standing
Outside on the sidewalk,
Peeking in windows
Watching the fun
While I am left alone,
Facing the bitter wind as it blows.
I will never fit in
Or become one of the group.
I'm cursed by the outsider mark.
Acceptance a dream,
Acknowledgement a wish.
I'm left alone in the dark.
Do you Know why?
His blood is the tear he cries
Sorrow fills his every vein
For soon mankind shall be insane
And Jesus Christ himself shall brand
Us as cold cruel beings
Upon a cross
We all shall pay this deadly cost
The end has come, and you shall see
You know that what will be , will be
There shall never be rebirth
Leaving man to dwell in sin
Death of earth shall now begin
But death shall not be in god's hands
The sword is swung by the hands of man
We shall destroy ourselves and cry
The good book says, we all shall die.