Sometimes when I'm feeling blue, a lot of "what if" questions enter my mind. Questions like what if I run away from home? What if I pretend to be sick? What if I just lie? What if I go somewhere else where no one knows me? And the scariest of all my questions is what if I kill myself?
Death is my greatest fear. It is the fear of the unknown. I don't have any idea of how painful it could be to die. I don't know if I'm going to heaven or to hell. I don't know if I've already done my mission. I don't know if the people I love would be okay if I can't be there for them. But it could probably be such a relief. Being dead would probably mean no more studying, no more responsibilities, no more pain. Being able to leave this world full of evil would seemingly be wonderful.
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On Killing: The Psychological Cost of Learning to ...But what holds me back from killing myself? What holds me back from being able to escape with everything that I have to deal with? My number one reason would have to be being afraid to go to hell. They say that people who kill themselves go straight to hell. I wouldn't want that to happen to me. It's better to suffer for a whole lifetime than to suffer for all eternity. My next reason would be not being able to bear the pain I would cause for the people who love me. When one kills himself, he also kills the people who loves him. Killing the people who love me means that I don't end their lives but killing them spiritually. I would kill all the dreams my parents have for me and everything else. My mother risked her life when she...