Being a mother was the scariest thing for me to do. Although I had a good childhood, I never thought about how I would handle things from a motherÃÂÃÂs standpoint. No only was my pregnancy a surprise, but I had no idea how I was going to break the news to my then male friend, now husband, and even worse breaking this news to my mother.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was scared because I had no clue of what to do, how to feel, how to prepare myself for a lifelong decision of raising a child and worse of all, I was not psychology prepared to handle the situation at hand. I wondered how I would provide for myself and my child, with no income or a high school diploma. Before I found out I was pregnant, I made plans to enter into the military, following in my fatherÃÂÃÂs footsteps.
After finding out about my pregnancy, those plans changed quickly. Instead of going to the military, I had to refocus my life and make sure that I finished school. Finishing school was important because I didnÃÂÃÂt want my child to grow up and think she didnÃÂÃÂt have to finish school as well. Being a great role model for her was the most important thing and by me finishing school would show her that having a diploma only makes things a little easier in the long run.
My attitude of being pregnant was not pleasant. I was disappointed because although I knew the consequences of having unprotected sex, I still played Russian roulette with my body and allowed myself to be in the situation I was now facing; thankful that it was not worse. I didnÃÂÃÂt plan on having any children until I was well into my...