Mum, how are you? Do you have any idea of how much I miss you? I want to cry because I'm hurting so much inside. I haven't turn out the way you want me to turn out, I'm sorry. Maybe I will never be the 'perfect' daughter you hoped. I don't have the courage to face you today, not because I don't love you anymore or you're not important to me. It's because I care so much about how you think of me, I don't want you to see me like this, I want to leave you the impression of me being successful and happy. And I'm confident that one day I'll be all that and more, and by then, I promise you, no matter where I am, or what I'm doing, and I wouldn't care if you remember me or not, I'll race back to see you, and tell you about my accomplishments, and until that day, please take care for me and enjoy life.
I miss you so much that it hurts, my heart's been twisted and ripped when I see you and I can't talk to you or hug you or even tell you how much I have missed your love and encouragement. I'm sorry, I just cant face up to you now, maybe you wouldn't even care about how I am doing now because you know I will come through it eventually like I always do. But looking into your eyes, I saw the high expectations you have for me, I just couldn't let you down, not now, not ever! I promise you, I will do the best I can and be the kind of person you would be proud of. I will strive to become the best me I can possibly be. Thank you, mum,