I'm beginning to understand life less and less everyday. When I was
young, I use to believe that I had actually had the world all figured out,
but now, as I grow, I know that having the world all figured out is
impossible because I now realize that I will never understand
even the simplest things that life has to offer, like why people love who
they love, and why people fight with the ones they love the most.
People use to tell me that I was going to go places, that I was the one
that was actually going to be somebody . . . , that somebody they long for me to be,
and that somebody I have
always dreamed of becoming, not just to satisfy myself but also to satisfy
my family and those around me. Now it is as if my life has taken a 360
degree turn around the sharpest corner of life.
I am so confused on
everything. I am now beginning to question all of my goals and
aspirations in life that I had once set for myself.
Life is getting too
complicated for me, I'm to the point where I am just living day by day,
completely careless to those around me. putting all my hate on paper
for day to day it gets greater.
Though I feel as if I have
everything in life that a girl could ask for - I have a lot of friends,
family, and a boyfriend that cares for me greatly,but still
I feel more alone than I ever have before. I just have this emptiness inside
of me, and I don't know how to fill it.
When i was with Davonna
I said that I was in love, but who really knows what...