So Whats It Gonna Be?

Essay by lche August 2007

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Dear Family, what's it gonna be?Current mood: Don't make me run away.

Dear Family:I'm never going to meet your expectations.

Nothing I do will ever be good enough for you.

Everything I say will be wrong.

Everything I think will be dumb.

Everything I do will be stupid.

You don't think I know what I want.

You don't believe me when I say I'm happy.

But I AM happy.

I am thankful.

I am grateful.

But you don't believe me.

It's all just words.

You are blinded by your misery.

You can't see that I have a good thing going.

I have my head on straight.

I have a good guy.

I am going to college.

Nothing will throw me off course.

I am my own person.

I am who I want to be.

But you don't care.

You just want to compare me to other failures.

I feel unbelievably misunderstood.

I've messed up in the past.

So have you guys.

It happens.

You say I am only thinking with my heart;Not with my head.

Well screw you.

Who are you to judge me?3 failed marriages.

A marriage without being in love.

I hardly think you're in the position to judge.

Sure, experience, sweet, nice - that only gets you so far.

My first two sisters messed up.

I'm not them.

I am my own person!!!!Let me make my own choices.

Keep all of your negative feelings and pessimism to yourselves.

I don't need it here.

You both are pushing me further and further away.

I can't talk to you guys.

I can't even look at you.

You guys see a little girl, well guess what?I've grown up.

I grew up when you made me move all those times; tearing me from everything I loved and knew.

I grew up...